filosofico typings

Busy Confused Busy Confused

Been busy for quite a few days now.. Though, things seem to have been completed when given an overview, there is still so much to be done.. Btw, I am talking abt my internship project.. To give a brief overview abt it, all I'll say is that its a conference bridge and peer to peer audio/video Messenger.. Messengers dont really have a good impression on ppl.. Why?? So many of them available on the net for free download.. But, making one isnt that easy specially when the language is Java and developers are ppl like me :D Had a tough time initially.. For quite some time, I cudnt even differentiate between the inbuilt functions and the self written procedures.. everything went OH.. At times, I got this feeling of lifting up my hands and leave all the work as it is.. But then, I thot of giving it a try.. Giving coding a try.. and now, I'm definitely a BETTER coder.. Better in CAPS indicates that I've now risen from say a level 0 to level 3 on a scale of 10. How much percentage increase is that btw?? Infinte write ;)) hmmm.. definitely BETTER ..

Yeah, so I thot of giving it a try.. Even stopped attending my CAT classes.. Why the hell did I join the coaching btw.. I never wanted to go for MBA after my BTech.. The reason was the same, just because all of dem were joining.. This isnt the first time.. I've taken many foolish decisions all my life.. I jes dont feel like thinking abt some of them.. But then, as the previous post says - past sometimes catches up with u.. wow!! I rmred it and hit it at jes the right moment..

It often happens that we start on something and leave it in an uncompleted state... Most of u have noticed, most of the times (most of, most of.. Shit.. there's a special word for this in English) it isnt that difficult to finish off the task.. Talking philosophy or something, Buddha or Vivekanand sed - "Try to accomplish ur aim with diligence".. But then, this sentence had a flaw when I think it from my perspective.. I never aimed to be a better programmer.. But then I thot that who the hell in this worlds wishes to work hard.. Be different, work hard :D

No, I definitely dont match up with atleast 50% of my batch in terms of technical intelligence, but as I sed, there definitely is some improvement.. This technical world doesnt really seem to be that bad as I felt earlier.. Hmm.. Thodi bahut aur mehnat ki jaa sakti hai.. Whatever.. Future plans or I must say long term plans are still not crystal clear... Where do I wish to landup.. Managerial/Technical .. I am really really confused.. Bloody heart (I mean its full of blood) says kaun sala mehnat karega, kaun sala programming seekhega.. but mind argues behen ke take, engineer banne ke baad engineer to lag.. When the level of contradiction increases, blood heart (rmr, full of blood) says abe, itni door ki kya soch raha hai.. aish kar and things settle down..

Currently, all I wish is finish off everything and go back to my home, sweet home.. Btw, I have something important for tomorrow (rather today).. I need to give a demo to Dr. Raj Reddy.. He's a big guy.. Everyone feels like respecting him from within. He's srsly cool man.. I've met him once regarding the DLI.. Then, I gotta meet him tomorrow for the 3Com project.. Am sure, he wont rmr me.. Who am I neways? Jes another student and that too not among the selected cream.. This feel of being a JACP (Just ANother Common Person) really motivates u at times.. I'll tell u a secret today.. When I need to motivate myself, I jes go and talk to someone whom I respect/consider as a more intelligent person.. And it really works..

So, in short, decision's still to be made.. Technical/Managerial.. You cud read this as Hard Work/Light work .. Atleast I feel it that way..

posted by AK-84 @ 2:59 AM