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Do you ever feel lonely and sad? Do you ever want to cry but then you feel that the reason isn't really good enough? Do you ever feel like weeping in front of everyone? Do you ever want to tell people how much you feel bad about some things in particular? Do you ever want to forget somethings? Do you ever feel that the right thing to go about certain things is in a certain way but then that isn't what you really want to do? Do you ever want to work the way your heart wants you to? Do you ever feel pity for some people? Do you ever feel that your heart and mind aren't at all in coordination? Do you ever stop your tears just at the moment when they're about to kiss your cheak? Do you ever feel like hitting someone badly but then you realize that it won't actually solve the purpose? Do you ever feel like removing certain days from your life? Do you ever feel like changing things according to your way?
Why doesnt it happen that everything goes about your way? You get all the good, and others inspite of what they get, good or bad, they don't really complain at all. You keep on speaking what you wish and others have just ears to listen, no hands to shut those listening ears, no mouth to shout on us. They're dumb listeners who always have a sweet smiling face. But then you need to have a mouth. OK!! you have a mouth, you can smile if you wish, neither can you make irritating faces, nor can you speak :D Won't it be great? Or probably, the speaker would get irritated after sometime. ANd he too would like to listen to someone.
Do you ever feel like doing something when there isn't really any need? Do you ever feel like saying something or the other, be it sensible or not? Do you ever wish to right random thoughts? Do you ever wish to make mistakes knowingly (right for write)? Do you ever feel like wasting your time the above way, posting lots and lots of questions, and wasting others' making them read and think about those stupid and dumb questions?
Why the hell did starting batches join IIIT?
Sometimes I wonder that what exactly would have been the thoughts of IIIT's starting batch's students at the time of joining this institute.
Do intelligent people act this way? I must talk to some people from those batches or else I'll burst off my head thinking a reason for this. Everytime I look at a person from those batches, I feel envy as in why didn't GOD make me that intelligent :( Everytime, I see those students, I get motivated towards the better working in IIIT :D
I'll just name some of them here. If you have an answer to the above question, kindly let me know :
1)
Hemant G - THeir batch's gold-medalist. Did his MS from CMU.. Currently representing 3Com at IIIT.
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Karteek Alahari - He was another gold medalist. Currently, pursuing his MS in IIIT. Dropped the Robotics branch at CMU before this. He must be having some real big master plans.
3)
Vamshi Ambati - One of the most handsome guys I've ever seen. Pursuing his MS from CMU. Yes, these people have made CMU a local university or something. There must be a whole lot of IIITians out there. A real sweet guy. Such caring and polite. Believe me, GOD should keep on making me meet such people.
4)
MNSSK Pavan - Could neone be more funnier than this guy? Awesome guitarist. And too friendly to talk. He's like always bantering around. He's even nick named as Dr. Jawahar's baharwaali.. :D
5)
Soumyajit - Could ne other student be better in graphics? i don't really think so. Could neone be more cool and calm?
6)
Sujit - He was a tutor for one of my programming courses. And believe me, he debugged the code before even looking at it. There was no question those days that he coudn't really solve. By the time he passed his BTech, he was done publishing 3 to 4 research papers. Currently pursuing his MS from some foriegn university. If I'm not wrong, he must be in MIT.
7)
Sashi Kumar - He's one big favorite of all the Andhrites. Good sportsman, good programmer, good at almost everything that he does. As heard, he's got a plan for every minute.
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Sesh Kumar - Didnt really have much interaction with this guy except for those days of working along with him on the scanning project. But this guy's good. He's one of the favorites of Dr. Jawahar. i was really scared of this guy in the starting. Terrorist by his looks but really innocent and sweet.
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Ravi Kiran - Don't really know much abt this guy but have heard that he's the best at programming out here.
10)
Vipul - I don't really find myself worthy enough to write abt this guy.
11)
Mudit - HP Labs + University of Maryland (Dr.PJN's university) .. Do u have a better comparison?
12)
Sunil Mohan Adapa - Heard that none other was better in linux. He was the best system admin that our insti could have.
I hope, I didn't really miss out on someone greater than the above mentioned. Isnt that strange that people like these had confidence in IIIT at the time of joining. They werent even getting degrees. It was diploma at that time. Had not the government been generous enough, they would have really missed out on something really important in their lives.
Just look at the resumes of these people. How could neone say that IIIT's not going to grow. I tell you, my institute will reach pinnacles of success some day. I tell you, my institute's going to be the best one day and there's no second thought to this. Such people will always keep flag flying.
Is it being lucky or what?
He he.. Starting off with a 'he he' must have showed you all my happiness as of now :) Man!! Its not the first time today.. We've (me and Rajesh) been really lucky in this sense.. Guess what, we had lunch and dinner with faculty today..
One project, the scanning project, one that I hate the most among all that are there in my resume (See, I may not have worked for all in there :D) has really fetched me the most..
I remember - the first one was this CVIT party that I was dying to attend. But till the last moment we didn't really get the invitation.. Infact there wasn't ne point of getting one.. Not much work in CVIT.. No honours.. Scanning project is nowhere a CVIT project except that its under Dr. Jawahar.. But still, he's always been really caring.. guess what, he asked us to come for the party and it was fun.. it was awesome.. these ppl spent something arnd 60 k on the party.. and it was nearly 50 ppl to attend.. You could guess the lavishness yourself ;) i even sang a song out there.. And ppl did clap.. am sure it mustave been cause it got over after just a para..
So, next was this showcase where we kept in our project.. I won't really tell you about the project or else if Dr. jawahar reads this, my grade will definitely be screwed.. :D I always wanted to keep something in showcase but then never really worked so hard to make a good enough displayable work.. neways, it was just a night before that Dr. Jawahar (yes, it was him again) asked us to design a poster for the project.. It was a breath-taking moment for me. Me giving a demo to all the big wigs out there.. God's always showered his blessings on me..
Then, to talk abt the scanning project again, it was a blessed 6th May'05.. Yes, that's today.. There was this scanning workshop being organized for 2 days. And our part was to be presented in front of the the ppl who attended and that was cause the title was - "Tools and Resources for Mega Scanning Project" .. Neways, not going into further technicalitites (I dont really know much), Dr. Jawahar (kitne ehsaan karoge sir?) asked us to join them for lunch and dinner.. cool no. At lunch, we thought it to be really embarassing. It was like - God! what the hell would ppl think abt it? We are some selfish, hungry lot who've grown fat eating at such free lunches.. So, now came the dinner time. This guy, Vamshi (He's really cute. You must meet him sometime) called us for dinner saying that Dr. Jawahar wants us to be there.. And the dinner was, I tell u, HeAvEn .. though i dont really like having dinner these days but after having the soup out there (yes, we had starters too :D), I cudnt resist having a dinner.. :) ANd yes, I was right. It was god damn tasty..
Going away from scanning project, we've been lucky in such sense at other times too. Dinner with faculty during the Jeevan Vidya workshop was one such example. Yes, that time it was with the Director. What else would one want?
Yeah, so coming back to today's dinner - as soon as we reached in the guest house, we found faculty seated in a group. Dean spoke up loudly - "So, hows Khurana saab". And all the other faculty members were looking at me as if I was their head that time. Is it that the dean is really cool or is it me? Yes, you're right - its our dean :) And I really appreciate him for that. To tell u the truth - I love him for that :) What next, as usual, he started talking abt the Geeta thing. My dad's one great person I would ever see in my life. You look at his practicality towards life and m sure that u won't feel like looking at anyone else later. I love you dad.
So, I was jes thinking that even after cursing this project for nearly an year now (not sure if its me cursing the project or is that the project's got a weight on us), its given us sooo much.. GOD! Thanks for everything. Not that today's day added to my importance out here, not that 6th May'05 would make me a successful person some day but one thing's for sure, it made me happy ; it made me like some people - Dr. Jawahar, Vamshi ; it made me feel more comfortable with the faculty ; it made me make such a long post today :)
Bloddy Songs
No matter how much I try to control myself, downloading latest songs is one thing I can't get rid off.. Now, once downloaded, one will definitely want to listen them atleast once.. paropkaar ke liye to download kiye nahin hain.. ab sunne ek baad, its almost for certain that one would like some over the others. Then, one goes for re-listening the songs which will definitely make one like them more.. And by the time, we are bored of them [the good ones], more songs are always waiting in the queue :( Weren't their enough new songs that these damn music directors have started producing remixes for the old ones..
Till what extend do I fool myself saying that they don't distract while one studies? May be instrumentals are a lil better... But they too distract in case one gets to like them.. Not just this, they waste one's time in a way that one feels like writing abt the previous time waste forgetting abt the current time waste..
Hakuna Mataata
One guy jes happened to bring to my notice this beautiful song from "The Lion King".. The phrase - "hakuna mataata" means "No worries".. I feel that the concept's great and it does motivate you to get rid of all the worries in ur life. I've been singing this song since the past 3 to 4 days and have found it to be the best way of making myself cool abt things, cool abt life and cool as far as caring for others is concerned.
I am still not sure if the phrase has just been created for the sake of putting a song in that movie or does it really exist in some language. In case u know abt it, kindly let me know. But it doesnt really matter. What matters is that it does solve the purpose. Speak up loudly - "Hakuna Mataata" and one feels better. But u won't really agree unless you listen to that song urself.
"See, bad things happen and u cant do nething abt them, right?" This is one of the things that we keep on hearing all day long. But, relating the concept with hakuna mataata in the song was influencing in a different sense. Its 'A must hear' is what I'll say..
Some things to ponder upon
Some guy jes happened to ask me a question - "Why are u generally invisible on yahoo"? Though, I answered something like there are lot of crappy ppl added, I think that I did hide something. i don't really like chatting without a need and many ppl happen to chit-chat a lot .. I would rather waste time doing more interesting things in my life :D
Generally, we ppl tend to make generalizations based upon a very short data set. There was something that I jes heard examplifying the above generalization fact. Still it doesnt matter. We too do something similar when it comes to us. Whatever!! Life's not so ideal to set everything in a manner that it should be.
Is doing something for urself, selfish? Then probably every damn living creature/being on this earth is selfish and why shouldn't we actually be that way? We are here to make a space for our lives. And caring and worrying for others' interests is just not possible in this cruel world. The demands won't ever get over. So, instead of getting sad as to you didn't care for others' feelings, better we move on to the path set for us by the distiny.
Listening to - "kitne ajeeb rishtey hain yahan par" from page 3. I found the movie to be great. More I listen to this song, stronger do I get a feeling of it exactly fitting in with the institute's environment. One of the line says - "sabhi ek doosre se sayaane hain". Then another line says - "ek pal milte hain, saath saath chalte hain. jab mod aaya to bach kar nikalte hain". no emotions, no feelings. And may be I too have turned into a similar bastard in the past 3 yrs. But then, I need to survive right? kuch nahin yaar, sabhi matlabi hain and we need to be the same. is bigde hue samaaj mein, sudhra rehna is just not possible.
