Thursday, November 02, 2006

Waiting sucks

It is terribly irritating when one needs to wait for something/somebody. Looking at cellphone more often if you missed a call, looking at watch more often only to find that it's not even been a minute before you last checked the time, checking emails every 5 minutes, logging on to messengers to see if there are any offliners, trying to think of other alternate ways which could be used to pass on information and if you've missed on that one too.

Everything's just an excuse to believe that the expectations haven't been shattered yet. But the bitter truth is that they have. Anyways, things are great. They really are.

Time taken to write this post: 4 minutes

It helps!! Finally bit relaxed

It's been tough for the past few days. Things have been disturbing all the time - at work, at home, during drives, everywhere, anywhere, even on a shit pot.

But then, I found a way to let out my emotions. Picked up a diary, wrote few odd pages. Picked up the diary again the next day, wrote another page. Opened my blog reader and read through one of the blogs which has some real motivating posts (Atleast I find them motivating). Finally it helped. Got rid of a number of those irrelevant, disturbing thoughts. Stupid, how stupid of me to have been wasting time thinking of stuff.

When there are disturbing thoughts on one's mind, distractions are at their heights. Everything that one listens, watches or feels is tried to be co-related with those stupid emotions and thoughts and are in turn found to be irritating, only adding to those distractions. Everything looks shit then. Everything looks shit even at the moment. Time for another diary page I guess.

Time taken to write this post: 5 minutes